You despise me and I love you. It's not much but it's just enough to keep.

Rusi over at Contemporary mix of "genius" had a lot to say yesterday. His vicious accusations against me, manifested itself as actual physical lesions (pictured above).
After receiving this injury, I've sort of grown smitten with Rusi.
This must be what battered wives feel, this lusting for the man that hurts you so, and loathing for yourself for keeping him around. I mean I try to keep him entertained through my posts, partake in his war, avidly Google his name, for what? To maybe, just maybe, get a taste of my love returned.

for Rusi:
(my) Heart skipped a beat (for you) - the XX (myspace)
(I am your)Love Fool - The morning benders (myspace)
Best I ever had (is what I would say if he let me come close enough)- Donna, Anna and Ruby(youtube)

Here's my heart Rusi, do what you please. Stomp on it, slice it up, take a Luger to it you nazi fuck. DAMN YOU RUSI, why cant we just be?